Smile all you want because you can

2012 post

2012-01-01T00:40:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah 2011 has passed and now for a whole new adventure

It was my first short skate session at Shah Alam skatepark before the new years. Thus reaching home before the massive jam too. Got to see a few of my old band friends, seems that their doing good. Really happy for them too. What will happen this new year, final exams.

InsyaAllah I'll pass the 2 papers and the rest of the story will roll in by itself. Happy 2012 and may everyone have a blessed year :)

Being Thankful

2011-12-12T13:41:00.004+08:00

No matter how bitter this illusive life can be. Friends changing, the days where they just sit down and chat has long gone by. Staring down on to small screened phones as if i was never there. A waste it may seem. Time for me to go into the enlightened stream. Stating the facts which burn slowly. I stay this way, still, silent and pale. Passive and content which what I've endured and achieved. A little bit of pride can surely hurt the heart inside. Family in which they are on their own. Only a son, me, who stays on with mother and finishing on whats undone. Studies, finance and dues. Easy for some, hard for a few. Like me, I pray for my heart to stay this way. A little soft, but never to sway. Still as straight and clueless. Smiling in anytime of day. Statements which turn back friend to foe. I would never care nor want to know. Losing people who you care for is already hard to endure. Tests and sacrifices to the path of paradise. Faith and actions that hold the fort of beliefs. Longing for the good ending in the afterlife. I am afraid, I am in fear of the days which draws near. Because I know my deeds are not enough. Still, I won't stop trying.

May Allah have mercy upon is all.

Moving on with life

2011-11-08T20:39:00.007+08:00

Assalamualaikum~

Cleaned up most of my online accounts: this blog has been cleaned out of the OLD posts that does not mean much anymore. It has been a hectic ride in the online world. But I'll only stick to a few sites now. I love my new lifestyle. Being a perfect nobody and live anonymously. Most importantly I am very thankful to Allah for giving me the chance to be on track with my religious duties again.

Day by day, I am beginning to turn weirder then I ever was. As if I have made a huge U-turn and saw the crashes which were caused by me. Now on this new road, my pace is steady. I do not envy the happiness of others. I just glad they are that way. I've had a share of moments and memories. But those are just in the past. Lifelong feelings for another has diminished from time to time. Which the only feelings I have are for my family. I respect my friends and old acquaintances which have been around for me back then. I thank them all. I have ventured alongside them. Felt so many feelings. In the end; we are still on our own road. Some leave, others might meet again.

I never planned on this to happen. But for the sake of sanity and my way of life: seclusion became the answer. Whatever I've had with anybody has now become part of my memory. Whether it sweetens my mind or burns my soul. It is already in the past. But what scares me the most is the future that is leading closer to the afterlife. May Allah save us all